I’m sitting at the kitchen table in my pajamas having been woken up suddenly by some unknown force before the sun rose this morning. Every year I vow to watch the sun rise on New Year’s Day, and every year I fail to get up in time so this intrusion to my comfortable slumber was a welcome one.
The start to 2013 has been a slow one, a morning to be savored. My back is to the open window and the natural light is a soothing companion to the rather large cup of chocolate chai tea swirled with last night’s caramel sauce. A little indulgence to greet the new year. The potatoes are ready to go into the oven and the eggs are waiting to be scrambled. And in this moment of in-between it is the perfect chance to ponder and pray over what I want 2013 to be.
This is not going to be a year of resolutions. I have an awful habit of breaking them and then feeling depressed about my lack of follow-through. I already have lists of goals and lists of intentions. Lists of fun things I want to try and lists of potential blog topics. I am nothing if not an obsessive list maker. And while I do intend for this to be a year of crossing off those lists, I want more out of 2013. I want a year of wonder.
As I take an honest evaluation of myself, I have become hardened. I don’t know that I would go as far as cynical, but I have misplaced my sparkle. I used to watch the sunrise every morning and marvel. I used to take long walks with the simple purpose of enjoying the beauty around me. I used to take more photos. This year, I want to find that again. I want to make a point to shift my focus back to joy and wonder. To celebrate the beauty of the everyday. To marvel at this beautiful world that God has created.
So, I raise my tea cup to 2013. Cheers to a new year and a renewed focus on finding joy in the simple and savoring the ordinary.
What is it that you want to find in 2013?